Emotions of Pregnancy

I'm feeling emotional/hormonal today so I figure today's blog is fitting to talk about what emotions and pregnancy hormones can do to one's mind and thought processes.
When I first found out I was pregnant, I immediately bought two pregnancy books, and by immediately I mean downloaded them onto my kindle the second that pee stick had two pink lines. These books were helpful, especially the sections about labor and what to expect. What was not helpful, was the tiny chapters on pregnancy hormones and things you will experience emotionally. They basically give you a scientific view on what your body is doing to produce the hormones (like I give a shit) and then basically wrap it all up in a package that says you will feel a lot of different emotions. Well thanks pregnancy book that I just spent 20.99 on...

What the books don't tell you is that you will feel insane, happy, sad, stressed, depressed, joyful, all at the same time. Now you ask, how is that possible? My friends it totally is. Now, I have not yet experienced the craving for food need that a lot of other women have expressed to me that they did while they were pregnant.

Wait, I lied. I did experience it once and it's embarrassing, but this is what this blog is about! It's about showing the ugly truth. 

It was about a month ago and I was having a wonderful, fantastic dream about eating a big, delicious, juicy cheeseburger from IN-N-OUT and an animal fry. Now, I would not order these two together normally but hell, it was my awesome pregnancy dream and I was going balls out at IN-N-OUT. I then woke up suddenly at 11:00 pm and realized that IN-N-OUT is still open!! Hallelujah!

Doesn't it look glorious?

I then, with out thinking that my husband has to get up at 5am for work, turned over and said, "We need to go to IN-N-OUT." He of course is a heavy sleeper and doesn't get up for anything! I then pounded my fist on his chest and he was all, "WHAT!" I then began to second guess my actions, and said, "umm...we need to go to IN-N-OUT now."  He was all, "uhhh...seriously?" I was like "yes, seriously." He then said, "What possessed you to wake me up and want to go get a cheeseburger?" I then told him about my dream and how I was just going to town on a cheeseburger and some animal fries. He then responded, "If you really want to we will." I then snapped out of pregnancy hormone craziness and said, "OMG, what the fuck is wrong with me! I'm sorry honey, go back to bed." I then sat there and couldn't believe I woke up my husband for a cheeseburger and animal fry.

This singular event has not happened again, but I also have to make it to February. 

The other thing you will feel is a bit overwhelmed. No, wait a lot overwhelmed. Which will make you think way ahead in the future, and think of every possible bad scenario that could happen. This one ladies, you have to keep in check or else it will consume you. If you feel like this, reach out and talk to somebody because they will assure you that everything will be OK! A perfect example of this would be the text conversation I had this morning with Nate:

Nate: What r u overwhelmed with? 

Me: Just like all this stuff we have to get done. Baby room and what not. I just keep thinking what if it's not enough?

Nate: We will get it done in time. We should lay out a plan tonight so this is not just looming over your head.

Now, this is where I go into that crazy, bad scenario place. Pregnant women, stay away from this area.

Me: I guess but kinda hard to lay out a plan when we don't know what it is! What if the baby doesn't show it's privates at the sonogram? And then we don't find out what it is? Then what!!? And we gotta keep all the receipts for things that are gender specific, just in case the sonogram is wrong and it comes out the opposite sex, which can totally happen!!

I then sent this text about 45 seconds later...

Me: I'm fucking crazy.

Nate: You are not crazy, you are pregnant and no need to worry about that. We will take it one step at a time. I am excited to learn the sex and watch the little one grow. I love you.

Me: Love you too, have a great day!

I seriously have the best husband ever!

Here is a cute picture of the cats that I took this morning, just for the hell of it:

Julia